Thursday, September 29, 2011

One of those days!

I have a confession to make...

The last 24 hours has been a doozy in the world of parenthood.
My children have been terrible, their mouths have been out of control, they have not been able to play together for longer then 5 minutes with out beating each other up, they don't listen, and can't seem to focus!

It's been one of those days!

Any of you ever go through this?!
You are just strung out and wondering what in the Sam hell has gotten into your children?!?!

Is it something wrong with me or my lack of patience today?
Is it just the devil trying to attack?
Is it a season that either my children or I am going through right now?

Whatever it is... I don't like it!
I don't like the fighting, the sassing, and definitely the not listening part.

Why am I saying all of this or venting via blog?
Well because that is what this blog is for... capturing the good, the bad, and the ugly part of our lives.
And because writing about it most likely will save a call to Loren where I start crying, telling him I am exhausted, and that today... motherhood is not all it's cracked up to be!

Wanna see what threw me over the edge...

I know, I know... didn't my Momma ever teach me not to cry over my child spilling pumpkin bread batter?
How about when it splatters and hits the ceiling? ......

Then can I cry?!

Please tell me it isn't me?!
You other Mom's have wanted to scream and run away too, right?! lol

Well, the babes are down for a nap and I am thinkin' the best remedy for me is a nap as well!
So, good night!

Here's hopin' when I wake up my children will have morphed into angels and I will have found my hidden stash of patience.

Chat later,


Friday, September 23, 2011

Fall Signs and Pumpkins!

It looks as though colder weather and shorter nights are here.
Do I dare say Fall is upon us?!

Well, if you follow me on Facebook then you might have remembered me saying I was workin' on some Fall crafts.
After Loren's surprise party and Jay's passing I was kind of on a craft hiatus! - just feeling crazy busy and then just down right to sad to tap into any kind of creativity.
But, I think I'm back!

I had a custom order sign for a wedding to fill... so whether I was too busy or too sad was not an option... I was forced to pick up a paint brush again.
And boy am I glad I did!
Once I started painting the wonderful feeling of all things Fall just crept right in.

Here is a peek into the box of goodies I am delivering to
The Front Room tomorrow morning...

 ...The big chunky "Apples" shelf sitter is perfectly rustic!

 ... some more shelf sitter signs and I couldn't help but throw in a "Trick or Treat" sign!

These stuffed pumpkins are too cute and really do make a great gift for someone... or yourself!

And if the stuffed pumpkins aren't your thing, I love these wooden cut out pumpkins!

Well, what do you?!
See anything you like?
Are you feeling all "Fall-ish" yet!

After all the Fall inspired crafts I'm thinkin' I need to get out my Fall decor.
But for now... it's 1:00 in the morning and I'm thinkin' I need to get to bed!

Good Night.
Chat later,


Thursday, September 22, 2011

Greta's Drawing

When I got the call that Jay passed away I was in the truck driving the babes to Mom's house.
There was really no way to hide or even play down the emotions I was feeling... so needless to say... my babes got to be there while Mommy had a small emotional breakdown.

When I first heard the news there was really no words... just tears.

That night Greta was very intrigued and concerned about why I was crying so hard on our drive to Grandma's house.
So, the best way I could, I explained to Greta that Mommy had lost a friend and I was very sad that I would never get to see him again.
Greta asked where he had went? - thinking maybe he just left or went on vacation.
I explained that Jesus needed him up in heaven and so he had to leave us and this life so he could go be with Jesus.
She then replied... "so he lives in Heaven now?"
And I said... "yep."

Over the last week since I have been living with Jay's passing, Greta has continued to ask some questions and just drop little lines like... "Daddy, Mommy has a friend that lives in Heaven." 
Or... "Mommy, Jay Beck is with Jesus right now."

It's amazing how fascinated she is with all of this and how much her little ears pick up!
Whether I was watching a news clip or talking about Jay and saying his name over a phone conversation... Greta knows quite a bit!
Granted everything I have said or seen around her has been censored and I explained to her in the most preschool manner what happened.... she just still talks about it from time to time.

Like this morning....

We have been sitting at the table painting, coloring, drawing, you name it... and although I watch Tuck like a hawk when we have crayons and colors out, I usually let G do her thing.
After she was done with her picture, she walked right over to fridge, grabbed some magnets and put it up.

When I looked over to see her picture she proudly announced...
"Look Mommy I drew your friend Jay Beck!"

I said... "Oh Greta, thank you!" "It's beautiful!"
"But who is that other person standing by Jay?"

And Greta said...

I'll have to admit, I couldn't help but smile and tear up.

I wonder if it will be like this for awhile?!
We are all still so sensitive to his name and the situation.

Either way... my Greta is a sweetheart.
It's amazing what her little ears pick up on and how her little mind perceives things.
I am so blessed to have her.

Hope you all are having a great Thursday!

Chat later,


Tuesday, September 20, 2011

The Loss Of A Friend

Last week I lost a very important person to my past.
A boy I went to school and graduated with.
A boy I went to church with and traveled across the world with.
A boy I got to laugh with, cry with, and go to prom with.
A boy with a name as big as his heart...
A boy named James Overton Beck the fourth.

I remember like it was yesterday, the first time I ever met Jay.

I was 16 years old and a sophomore in high school.
I was wearing a black skirt with a grey sweater and Jay was wearing jeans and a forest green button down shirt.
I was leaving Sunday morning church and walking out to my car when a boy started walking along side of me.
(a tall handsome boy at that!)
He said "Hey, don't you go to Coon Rapids High School?"
I said "Yeah, do you?"
To which he replied "Yep!"

By the time that short conversation was over we were standing besides our cars which just so happened to be parked right next to each other.
I said "Well, maybe I'll see you around school... I'm off to get some flowers!"
Jay replied "I could get some flowers?!"
I said "What?!"
He said "It's Mother's Day, I assume you're getting flowers for your Mom and I should probably get some for mine too."

And with that statement, Jay (this new stranger) was getting into the passenger seat of my car.
Little did either one of us know at the time, but that small encounter is what started the next 2.5 years of our life together.

We quickly became very close friends.

He started coming to my locker and walking with me to class.
We started sitting together at church.
I started cheering him on on the football field.
He started to call the snack pantry in my house "his bedroom".
We started taking road trips to Iowa and Missouri... just for doughnuts, I mean fun.
Each other house's felt more and more like our own,
and we started  to be by each other's side at all times.

There was no denying how close we were to each other.

I remember the night we sat at his Mom's kitchen table picking out our classes for college.
He wanted to take more history classes, I wanted to take more child psychology classes... but we vowed to take some generals together.
We were both so nervous about the upcoming changes that we sat in his kitchen eating cinnamon and sugar toast as if to soothe our souls.
By the end of that night our classes were selected and an entire loaf of white bread was gone!

We went off to college that fall.

With a new season of life upon us came a whole new season of change.
Before I knew it the changes and new lifestyles started to pull me and Jay apart and by the end of that year mine and Jay's friendship had faded into mere memories.

Up until last week I would look back at that time of mine and Jay's life and feel very mad and upset.
Upset that we couldn't make anything work... and mad that we lost touch and drifted apart so fast.

But as of last Wednesday, September 14th,  my memories and feelings started to shift.
I started to smile as my memories of Jay came rushing back.

All of a sudden I started remembering and reliving all of my moments with him.
Remembering his laugh and spontaneity.
Remembering his strong arms as he hugged me.
Remembering his love for food, and cats, and God.

I remember when he heard about a first date that I was going on one night.
I snuck out of church a bit early so I wouldn't be late and as I drove off out of the church parking lot....
I saw a boy running after my car.
That boy, that man, was Jay.

When I stopped the car to see what in the heck he was doing running like an idiot after me...
we had a slightly heated conversation that was fueled with past emotions.
He started telling me of bad choices I had made and I started telling him to butt out of my business and that he had no grounds caring for me anymore or telling me what to do.
And as that short and heated conversation came to a close,
he said something that has always stuck with me...

"Jen, just please listen!"
"If he is a loser, promise me you'll walk away because you deserve better then that!"

And he was right!
Not only was that one a loser but I did deserve better!
It's just a shame that it took me so long to realize that.

Just like it's a shame that it took Jay's passing for me to not only be reminded of my good times with him but for me to cherish that whole part of my life that I spent with Jay.

I haven't had Jay in my life for almost a decade and yet I feel as if a part of me is gone.
A part of me that I shared with Jay, and him with I, that we will never get back.

But, I know that is technically not true.
For I know that Jay is walking the streets of heaven and seated with the most high.
Jay is no longer facing the sufferings this world brings but he is enjoying his new life with our God... and for that I am thankful!

Even though I will never get to see Jay face to face in this life, in this world...
I know that one day we will meet again.
And this time, when we meet, I hope he has a big hug and a pint of Chubby Hubby ice cream waiting for me.

I miss you.


Tuesday, September 13, 2011

State Fair & End of Summer Catch Up!

Yesterday I was able to share and document the awesome-ness that was Loren's Surprise Party... but I had made mention that I was pretty much off the radar for just about 2 weeks!

What was I doing during those 2 weeks you ask?

Well besides wrapping up the details for the surprise party I was pretty much enjoying the last little bit of summer we have left!
Loren and I made our annual trip to the Minnesota State Fair with the babes!
It is usually the last little "hoorah" before summer comes to an end.

The babes are at a pretty decent age to enjoy all that the fair has to offer...
... like the little farm hands farm...

And the fair is always good for silly novelty things like these Gander Mountain fish hats!

And home to just about anything you can think of on a stick! 
Like this giant gummy bear! 

The babes loved them!

... and the Sweet Martha's Chocolate Chip Cookies!
We were definitely on a little sugar high that day! - but the fair only comes once a year and some times you just gotta splurge!

And you can't go to the State Fair with out taking a ride on the Carousel.
I just love this pic of these 3! - well besides Tuck's strange face I guess!

Speaking of food on a stick... Loren and my bro in law Branden wanted to try chocolate covered jalapenos on a stick!

Needless to say... they were ungodly hot... and it wasn't a great idea! lol

Let's see... so besides the State Fair what else were we doing?!

Oh that's right... we finished a bunch of custom furniture pieces and delivered them!
Like this book shelf and 2 benches for a church...

 ... and this gorgeous dining room table and bench for our best friends, the Kell family!

All of that pretty much brought us up to Loren's party!
After his party was over we got to spend some quick, but much needed time with the Appleberry's...

My babes can never get enough fun and silly play time with their cousins!
They were sad to see them go so soon!

And that's about it folks!
We are caught up to speed and have really had such a great summer!
I can't believe it is just about over and Fall is merely days away.

If it wasn't for the beautiful Fall weather and colors or the fun activities and holidays coming up... I just might cry. But we have some great things coming in this next season... so I am thankful for our wonderful summer and excited for what is to come.

Hope you all are having a great week and getting ready for the cooler weather!

Chat later,


Monday, September 12, 2011

Loren's Surprise Party!!!

*Beware of a lengthy & picture filled post*
- but it is posts like these that make me so glad I have a blog to document some of life's greatest moments! -

Oh my goodness! It has been 11 days since I posted last! .... just about 2 weeks! Wow!

Well in my defense, you wanna know what I have been doing for the last 2 weeks? (well actually 3 months!)... I have been planning a Surprise Birthday Party for Mr. Appleberry!

That's right... in just a few short days my honey will be turning THIRTY!

It was about 3 months ago that I started dreaming up plans and ideas to make Loren's thirtieth as special as he is!
And like my Momma has always said.... "every body's gotta have at least one surprise party in their life!"
... and I couldn't agree more!

So 3 months ago the planning began.

Setting the date, picking the place, planning the menu.
Then shortly after that, buying the food and decorations in stages and hiding them at my mom and sisters. Getting invites and sending them out.

Then of course there were the lies!

Oh how many, many, lies I have told!
That was hands down the hardest part of planning a surprise party this large!
Everything that came out of my mouth had to be well thought out and planned. I had to have my brain and mouth in constant sync and make sure everything was filtered before it was said.

Boy am I glad that is over!

Then as the time passed it all came down to last Saturday, September 10th...

I left the house that morning at 8:30 to go to "work" as Loren thought... when in all reality I went over to my Mom's and spent the whole day over there cooking, decorating, and setting up!
When it was time for me to "leave work" I left Mom's and went home to pick up Loren.
See, he thought that I was taking him out for dinner that night on a birthday date and Momma was watchin' the kids.

As I got home he was shaving and getting ready for our "dinner date."
Shortly after getting home we were freshened up, dressed up, and ready to bring the babes to Mom's so she could babysit.

Meanwhile there were about 60 - 70 friends and family at Mom's getting set up and into position!

Even Loren's family from Missouri made the 9 hour drive for this day!
As we came down the street the text was sent and everyone was alerted that we were here!
We pulled up into the driveway and my Dad was in the garage to let us know Mom was down back.

We got the babes and headed down to the backyard...
and as Loren walked through the gate...


 Loren was literally stopped dead in his tracks as everyone he knows and loves screamed "Surprise!"
"Happy Birthday!" balloons for every single person floated up and filled the sky!
Everyone rushed to hug and greet the Birthday Boy!
Here he is swoopin' up his Missouri nieces...

Mom, Dad, Sister and Nieces!
The whole Missouri clan!

And the best part is... my babes were just as surprised to see all of them as Loren was!
I was the only one who got to know they were coming!
Usually 2 and 3 year olds are not the best at keeping secrets so they were kept in the dark and just as excited as Daddy was!

And not only did Loren's family come... but one of his best friends Nate, from Missouri, made the drive as well...

Here is me with my Birthday Boy and his "Mona Pie!"
A special cake made and delivered from the great state of Missouri!
- thanks Mona! :)

And before we knew it... the party was started and in full swing!

Everyone got to dine on Loren's favorite food...
We had a full service Nacho/Taco bar!
And who knew the weather would be so nice?!
So tons of parents and little kids were swimming in no time!

And definitely the main attraction of the night
(besides Loren! haha)
Was the Photo Station!!!

I wanted to have a fun and creative way to get pictures of everybody in attendance so Loren could look back and smile about the days memories!

Everyone was supposed to pick a prop and strike a pose...

... and boy did they!

So with out further a do, here are some great shots from that nights
Appleberry Photo Station!!!

The chalkboard on this next photo should have read...
"You can never have too many husbands!"
- my Mom with my Dad and Step Dad... lovely! lol

Oh my gosh!
That Photo Station was SO MUCH FUN!

Actually, the whole day was so much fun!
Loren and I are so blessed to be surrounded by some of thee best friends and family!

To all of you that came to celebrate 30 years of Loren...
Thank You!!!
It is relationships like yours that make birthday's like this even more memorable!

And to Loren...
Gotch' ya'!
Don't ever under estimate the power of your determined, creative, and loving wife!
Most likely, I will always be two steps ahead of you! ;)

I hope you all had an amazing time at Loren's party!
And thanks for being such great little secret keepers!

Who knows... maybe we'll be doin' another one of these in 30 years!!!
Shhhhhh! lol

Have a great, great, day everybody!


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